Why now, why after all this time am I starting another blog. Well, I've been journaling my daily life for years, and took a six month or so break from it. And I feel like I"m really missing things. My daughter is missing documentation of her infant life and my son is missing knowing about his final preschool months. But that's not the only reason.
I feel like my life is just totally chaotic right now, and that if I start journaling again, I will be able to refocus and get out what is in my head and my heart, so I can start organizing my life.
It's really hard to be a work at home mom to a one year old. Especially when your "work" is failing fast and you may be out of a job within three months to a year or so. Can't get a straight answer on that. We can't afford to live on just one salary, whether it be my husband's or mine. It's just not possible.
My house is a mess. Well, it's not as bad as you see on some of those television shows, but it still always needs to be cleaned up. Laundry is the worst - I feel bad for my kids because even though their laundry is a priority it's always done at the last minute.
Procrastinator - yes. That's me . I can't really say "I'm depressed" because I don't feel I fit the true depression diagnosis. I'm just really bummed with all the stress that has been going on lately. And what I've shared above is just the tip of the iceberg. There's money, my job and having to find a new one, my daughter's occupational therapy for her delays, my son's getting into trouble at preschool, my parents, my not great relationship with my brother, cost of living here, the possibility of relocating and all that entails, dealing with all of our animals, especially our cat from hell.
Yes, I'm stressed. I need to figure out who I am and what I want to do outside of being just a mother and a wife. But the first step towards recovery is recognizing your sickness, right?
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